Tuesday, November 29, 2016


We had a great Thanksgiving with our family!  We celebrated early with Danny's family last weekend and then headed out to Illinois to be with my family over the actual holiday.  There was a get together with my extended family, a movie night with a few cousins, having lunch at my favorite restaurant (twice), games with my parents.... for all of which my camera stayed safely tucked away in it's case.  Finally on Saturday night I remembered to bring it out during a small get together with some friends.  We had a wonderful evening having supper, playing games and just catching up on life.

My brother and his family had been gone all weekend until Saturday, so we had our family Thanksgiving on Sunday.  Summer had never gotten her own ice cream on a stick before and she thought it was pretty fun!

We also got to meet our niece who was born four weeks before Sawyer.  We were afraid they didn't really like each other, because they wouldn't look at each other!

So we traded places and were feeling better about the situation.

But then she bopped him on the chin so we just don't know what their feelings about each other are.  Only time will tell!

After all that, it was good to get back into our own space and routine.  Plus, we're going back in just a few weeks for Christmas so it's not quite so hard to say goodbye.  

As for right now, I just got really tired and would love to lay down for a nap.  But Summer just woke up.  Ain't that how it goes!!

Saturday, November 05, 2016

Singing Those Baby Blues

Well we have made it home and are in the middle of trying to figure out a new normal.  It was good to be home.  We had both reached the point in the hospital of just being ready to move on.

I want to start by saying that I absolutely do not think that post partum depression is anything to joke about.  I know it is very real and there is no shame AT ALL in getting the appropriate help.

However.  I've got me some baby blues that are just plain funny.  Kinda sorta.  There's been a few things that I've shed tears over that really do have merit.

I have cried for my friends that either struggle with infertility or have lost babies due to miscarriage.  It's not something that we have dealt with but I feel grief just thinking about it and can't imagine what the reality of it would actually feel like.

Or like when Summer came home.  She had been at my parents for the week and I cried because I missed her.  And then she came home and I cried and cried when I put her to bed for the first time because everything is different now.  And while just a week ago she seemed so small to me, now she seems so huge!  It was one of those moments when I was begging time to just stand still.  Oh, and she loves the bouncy seat.  It's like her new little recliner:)

And then there's other reasons I cry that deserve a little chuckle.  The thought of watching a movie in the basement where we usually do was just too much.  I insisted on watching it in the living room on my laptop because the basement was just too overwhelming!

I wanted a mom.  My mom hadn't come out yet and Danny's mom is on vacation.  And even though he was home with me during that time, I just wanted a mom.

The smell of my post partum bathroom supplies.... Weird, I know.  But the smell made me miss being in the hospital with all the nice, doting nurses.  Even though just two days earlier I was chomping at the bit to get out of there.  But you know- hormones!

I drove my car for the last time.  We just bought a van and my car is for sale now.  It's a great one if you're interested!  But anyway- I took it out for one final spin and just let the tears fall.  I don't know though- that reason might be an actual good one to cry.  I'm gonna miss that car!!

It's evening time.  And at this point that's as good of a reason as any to just have a good cry.

This all happened with Summer too and it lasted a couple weeks.  So I know things will get better.  But in the meantime it's been quite the roller coaster of emotion over here!

Other than that, we've been loving our baby snuggles,

getting to know some cousins, (check out that mouth!)

and seeing our name in lights, among other things.

I'm pretty spoiled as far as easing into a new routine.  Between Danny and my mom, I have almost two weeks of extra help before it's just me and the two kiddos.  It's pretty handy!  We'll get there... all in good time:)

Sunday, October 30, 2016

Welcome To The Great Big World!

Sawyer Jacob entered our world at 12:13 pm on October 28.  He weighed 8 lbs 5 oz and was 20.5 inches long.  We've got ourselves a robust little fella!

I had a scheduled induction but thought for sure I wouldn't actually make it that far because at my last doctors appointment nine days earlier she said my body was good and ready.  But I guess little man just was too cozy to come on out.  So we showed up, got started, and begged for an epidural.  That was all between the hours of 7:00-10:30ish.  By the time I got my epi, I was at 5cm and settled in for a little nap, thinking it would be mid to late afternoon before things really picked up.  My labor with Summer was 24 hours and I figured it wouldn't go that long again but didn't think it would go too incredibly quick.  Well.  About 11:30-11:45 I started thinking the nurse should check me because I could feel enough pressure to know that the contractions were coming long and hard and right on top of each other.  Right around noon my doctor stopped by to see how it was going and to do a quick check.  To which she said if nobody comes in here, this baby is going to deliver himself!  So we had a quick whirlwind setup, three or four pushes, and there he was!  It was a whole lot faster and easier than I expected, having pushed for two hours with Summer.  I was pretty happy about not having to do that again!

Those first moments are pretty surreal...

First family of four picture:)

This girl.  She cracks me up!  She loves the "de-de" for right now but we're not sure she'll love him once it's just me at home with her and Sawyer!  But for the next couple weeks she'll be well taken care of by grandma and daddy and will not have to face reality quite yet.

Cashed out after a tasty meal.  He's so red and blotchy and scratched up!  He came out with super long, razor sharp nails so I kinda wonder if he scratched himself up real good inside the womb.

Chillin' out in his first real outfit just waiting to go home!  Oh, and we got a little chastised about the paci:)  But boy it sure was nice to have a four hour stretch of sleep the night before!

The official celebration meal before heading home.  Twas tasty!

We have loved starting to get to know our little guy.  So far he has been pretty good.  He loves to be rocked and held but hasn't been a terrible crier thus far.  But he does have really stinky toots!  Looking forward to taking him home and getting settled and start introducing him to our friends!

Saturday, October 15, 2016

While We Wait...

Ho hum, the waiting game is in full swing now.  Last week at my doctor's appointment it seemed like things might be happening and I was getting all excited about going early.  But then this week there were almost no changes:(  So I'm surrendered to the idea of the possibility of going late again.  But at least there's been a few things to keep us distracted while we wait!

The sisters all went to Beef and Board's one night.  It was actually last year's Christmas present to Danny's mom but it just took us this long to get it accomplished.  We had a great night! 

The next day we got up and went with Danny's family to the zoo and to Chuck E Cheese.  Summer's favorite part was the farm area.  She loves farm animals.  (That's my girl!)

She mostly just wandered around the restaurant taking it all in, but she did get a horsey ride- which she was just a little unsure about!

A few sad sick days:(

Getting some practice!  Summer does really good with babies as far as being gentle, but she is a mama's girl so that will be an adjustment!

Reading books...

Getting her first daddy horsey ride

And we've also been doing grown up things too like looking at vans.  We're not in a huge hurry since this is just kid number two and we can still use the car pretty easily, but the search is on!

One week and one day until Due Day.  Here's to hoping we get to meet our little guy sooner!

Monday, September 26, 2016

September Smatterings

One day I was doing dishes and couldn't quite decide where Summer was playing or what she was doing.  But I could hear things every now and then so I figured nothing too bad was going on.  When I was finished in the kitchen I sat down and read her a book and THEN looked over to her toy basket.  Filled with her dirty diapers that she had carried one by one from her room to the basket.  I had to laugh out loud on that one!

We made applesauce one day!  Only a half bushel but it's enough for us right now.

Start 'em out young:)

We got to spend almost a week with our nieces while their parents were on vacation.  We had a lot of fun with them but were pretty wiped out by the time we got done!  (Five kids is juuuuust a little different than one.)

Someone learned the art of walking in princess shoes.  Kind of.  But when she's successful she's pretty excited about it!

We had a really quick, short and sweet trip out to IL this past weekend.  Aaron and Cassie had planned to go and invited us to tag along and so of course we did!  On the drive out there, I discovered that Cassie had never ridden in a combine.  I was a little bit shocked and appalled.  So we made it happen:)  And then I got to ride for about 20 or 30 minutes which is the extent of my harvest experience this year.  Maybe next year I won't be ready to pop and will be able to spend a little more time enjoying it.

October is just around the corner and while we have some plans, we also have a lot of waiting around and laying low, just waiting for this baby!  I've gotten a little sentimental about Summer not being my baby anymore so I'm trying to just really enjoy her these next few weeks.  But not so sentimental that I'm not really excited to meet our little guy!  Ready or not I guess...

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

One Last Outing...

 This past weekend Danny boy and I headed down to Indy for the day for one last fun thing with just the two of us before the baby comes.  We pretty much spent our time in the downtown area.  I had never really been to Indy before besides just driving through so I was pretty excited!  We started off our day with lunch at PF Changs and spending some time at Circle Center Mall.  I love PF Changs and Danny loves Asian food but had never been there so it was easy to decide where to eat:)

Next we headed to the canal and walked along that for awhile.  Soooooo romantic.  Well, not exceptionally but it was nice:)

When we walked past the Indiana State Museum, we saw this square dancing thing going on.  So many old people all dressed up in their dancing garb!  They tried pretty hard to get anyone on the sidelines to join in, but we graciously declined;)

On our way home we stopped at this Goodwill outlet store someone had told us about.  Oh my, people.  When this person told me about it I asked her if it was pretty much the junk of the junk.  To which she said yes.  And let me tell you.  It was the JUNK of the JUNK!!!  Even Danny, who is a natural garage sale/thrift store person thought it was a little much!  But it was fun to see and we did actually consider getting a Christmas decoration.  And then decided not to.

The only downside of the day was that I felt sick the whole time.  We also made a stop at Monument Circle which looked cool to me, but I was so wiped out by that point that Danny went to walk around a little bit while I stayed in the car and took a nap.  So for supper I just got Sprite and pretzels from a gas station and he did fast food drive thru.  Which included trying a slider from White Castle because he's just always wanted to try it and see if it's as nasty as everyone says it is:)  For someone not feeling so hot, it sure smelled nasty!!

But all things considered, we made the best of it and still had a good time checking out the city.  Now it's time to buckle down and really get ready for this baby!  (As much as one can be ready for a baby that is...)

Tuesday, September 06, 2016

The Weekend Of Labor (But Not Really)

Once again we headed west this weekend to my homeland!  I think we planned on spending Labor Day weekend in IL like, way back in early spring or something.  We knew we would be camping with Danny's family over Memorial Day weekend so we decided the next long weekend could be out there.  Plus it was my birthday weekend so it was just a no brainer!

On the drive out Danny asked me if I wanted to do something fun for my birthday besides just sit around my parent's house all Saturday afternoon.  So we settled on Tanner's Orchard.  I had never been there but always wanted to go.  So we left Summer with grandma and headed out!  We had fun doing the corn maze, checking out the animals, snacking on an apple cider doughnut, and going through the market.  So many free samples!!

(It was so bright and I'm so squinty.  Why I didn't just put my sunglasses on is beyond me!)

Then we went back to my brother's house for supper and a campfire.  My parents had plans so we invited our cousins and their families for the evening.  And we had to take a matchy matchy picture with the three of us:)

It was the perfect day to kick off the fall season!

Sunday night we were with my family.  After one big family naptime, we ordered Pizza Place, which is a pretty frequent request of mine whenever we're back there:)  Later, Danny and I announced we were going to go on a walk and if anyone wanted to come they could.  Guess who came?  EVERYBODY!  But it was a fun and relaxing little evening stroll.

Although my niece tried to do it a little more unconventionally:)

Since Monday was a holiday we got to spend Sunday night too.  We hung out until lunch and ate with my family before saying our goodbyes and hitting the road.

At first I had been a little bit bummed because some friends I wanted to see were out of town.  But the weekend ended up meeting and exceeding any expectations I had and I came home feeling all invigorated:)  (And one year older)  But I loved every minute of it!