Friday, April 29, 2011

Having A Downer Day:(

I'm trying desperately to smile, but I just can't seem to pull it off today:( 


Just kidding.  I just got back from the dentist and even the side of my nose is numb.  I walked into Nate and Jamie's house and she thought I had a small stroke!  For the life of my I cannot lift my mouth anymore than this.  I'm supposed to meet someone for lunch in a couple hours so hopefully it wears off by then!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Really? A Whole Month?

Ugh.  I'm turning into one of those people who is really sporatic about posting!  Oh well.  I guess if I never blogged again the world would continue to turn, huh? 

Anyway.  Let's see.... the month of April started with a send off party for my aunt, uncle and two cousins who moved to Denver.  I have a few pictures from that night but in order to put them on my blog I'd have to unhook the internent from my parents computer, hook it up to my laptop and go from there.  Just not worth it at this point.  It was a very mixed emotion type of day.  They are sorely missed, but there is no doubting that God has been leading them to make this move.  He has made it very clear over the course of several years that this is the path he wants them on.  So for that, it's exciting.  And, now the rest of us have a great excuse to take a vacation to Colorado!

Work is going better in the sense that I like the actual job a lot better now.  The hours on the other hand are still terrible.  Honestly I've kinda been a baby about having to work evenings and weekends.  I've just never had to before and it's really hard to get used to.  I first took the job thinking it would be great for when I go through the OTA program.  The hours are perfect for that.  But as of April 14, I officially did not make it into the program.  Don't worry though, I was pretty relieved.  Once I started taking a couple classes in the fall I had serious doubts that it's really what I wanted.  I still felt like I should apply though since that was the original plan.  I needed to give it a chance.  So I got everything filled out and sent it off.  But before I put it in the mail, I held the envelope and said "Okay God, this is all up to You.  I don't even know what I want at this point so if I get in I'll go ahead and do the program but if I don't, that's great too."  So not getting in really wasn't a bad thing, except now I do feel like I'm back at square one, the same place I was at last summer before I moved back from Athens.  Sometimes I really question what was God's purpose in bringing me back here since things haven't really fell into place like I thought they would.  Down there I knew my place and felt like I was fulfilling a purpose.  Here, eight months later, I'm still not really sure what that place is supposed to be.  But I still trust that God really did lead me back here for the time being and I trust that he has a plan and a purpose even in the waiting when he sometimes seems silent. 

All right, well I don't want to sound like Debbie Downer, cause I'm really not.  So, I LOVE being able to spend more time with my nieces.  Haley never really knew me very well when I was in Alabama and quite honestly it was kind of mutual.  I mean, I liked seeing her but it's hard to feel a bond with a child you never spend time with.  But now, the more I'm around her the more I just want to eat her up!  And Laney is just so cute!  I love her dopey little elf ears and her perfect little round lips.  It's fun to be able to be around for this stage of her life when she can just be held.  And really, my sister in law too.  Her and my brother got married just three weeks before I moved to Athens and she was from Michigan so I never really knew her.  So Jamie, you've been a perk to moving back too:)  And although so much has changed over the course of four years, God has provided me with some amazing friends that I love dearly and love being able to spend more time with. 

Well, I guess until next month..... (okay, hopefully not that long)